While I post in this blog often, I don’t take the opportunity to write anything very deep here anymore. With attention scattered across Facebook, Twitter and 500 other daily stimuli, I don’t feel I have regular readers to connect with my random acts of genius.
I went back to therapy tonight (for a one and only appearance – my insurance won’t pay for the $160 sessions). Over the past six months, I’ve had issues with panic attacks and over-OCD tendencies. My therapist helped me think through an appropriate response to such attacks – basically, my own “time out” where I leave the situation I’m in and go to a “happy place” to calm me down and slow the rapid heartbeat. When he asked me what my “happy place” is, he laughed when I responded the Apple Store. “No,” he said. “A happy place in your mind like a beach where you can get away from the context of the panic attack.”
“Yes,” I responded. “The Apple Store is right around the corner from my office.”
We all have a happy place where we can escape. My therapist asked me if I still wrote in my blog. Since I told him how my blog used to be therapy for me, it was an obvious question.
“Not really. I think it’s served it’s purpose as a therapeutic outlet for me. I need to find something else to dump my deepest thoughts.”
And that was it. I guess DanNation has served its purpose for me. I don’t intend to stop blogging – it’s just that it has changed as a medium in the world of social media and as a forum in my own life. More pretty pictures, less Dan. I miss the days pre-Facebook and pre-Twitter when my highway to the outside world was my blog. Things have changed and so have I.
So, I’ll be here often. Just a bit older and wiser, that’s all.
